Growing in God

So, I have made some big lifestyle changes. Mostly when it comes to my diet. I eat a hundred times healthier than I ever ate before. I so much less food in general, and mostly eat only healthy foods. Or I should say mostly foods high in protein and I try to get in some fruit and vegetable every day, too. And I am so proud with how far I have come regarding my diet and the big changes I have made to it. But, there is something I do need to work on changing more in my lifestyle. And that thing, is exercise! Now, don't get me wrong, I am fairly active on a day to day basis with my job and having to chase around kids all the time. But, I need to do more than just chase around kids at work. So, I have started trying to find some exercise things I can do. The first thing I have found that I am doing, is called "Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred". I have already done 2 days of it. The first day was brutal, I barely thought I was going to make it through. But, the second day went j...

As I continue to embark on this crazy journey called life, I have spent a lot of time trying to impress others, and make others proud of me. I, practically, have been trying to do this just for the approval of others and not necessarily to really make myself proud. I have been seeking to here the words "I'm proud of you". Well, I have a reached a point where I am done trying to impress others. And I need to focus more on doing this for me, and making myself happy and proud of where I am and how I am doing. I, honestly, have just come to this conclusion just recently. I have been feeling like my family and friends have finally been feeling proud of me and like I am worth while. They have told me they are proud of me and happy for me and they can see how much happier I am. I have started to feel a sense of approval from them. But, just recently, I felt like I still was not making everyone proud of me. There are just a couple of people in my life who I have yet to hear any...

So, last year at around this time, I wrote a blog post telling you guys about my goals for 2015. Well, let me just say HOLY CHEESE ITS!! I actually accomplished all of my goals for 2015! I, honestly, was not sure it was going to be possible, but God got me through it and made the impossible, possible. My first goal for 2015, was to help my mom beat cancer. And PRAISE GOD, my mom kicked cancers butt and sent it packing right out the door! She has been in remission since August and we are so thankful and feel so blessed! I am also just so happy to see her finally feeling good again and back to herself. Also, with having a granddaughter, my mom definitely is glowing and so happy! So God is definitely good on that front. The other goal I had for myself was to find a job and start really being more independent and take care of myself more. And yes, I did find a job. I was offered the job in the middle of July, and started in September. I work for a Before and After School Daycare Progra...

For such a long time, I was feeling like such a failure at life. I had lost all my self worth and honestly did not really care anymore. I felt I was just a fat, useless, piece of crap that couldn't get a job, was stuck in my body, and couldn't do anything. I felt like such a disappointment and like a failure to my family. I could feel how upset they were with me and I could tell they all were disappointed. And I was stuck in such a rut for so long. I, honestly, thought I would never measure up to anything and like my life was just a waste and I was just a hopeless cause. I never thought I would ever feel proud of myself and just continue to live a sucky life. I felt like no matter how hard I tried to better my life, it just wound up back in failure. Now, I, finally, feel like things are changing for the better. I am now feeling like I am getting my life together and I am starting to become a better person. I feel like I am on the road to living the fulfilling life that I want...

Hello everyone! It has been awhile since my last post. The last time I even made a post was the day before I had my Gastric Sleeve Surgery, and now I am 3 weeks post op. How crazy! So, definitely time for some updating! To start off, I am feeling really good! I am not having any pain, and really have not had any pain for awhile now. The actual surgery pain was not so bad, it was controlled pretty well with the meds. And once I was home from the hospital I was able to manage with just some Tylenol every one in awhile. The bad pain was the gas pain! I had a lot of gas pain, and it took about a week for that to completely subside. And I did use a lot of meds to help the gas, and I also did a lot of walking. Walking is truly the best medicine for gas pain! Second off, it is amazing the changes I have made and that I am seeing. It was so crazy to me that eating anything just sounded so disgusting for so long. It took probably a good week and a half before food even sounded good or looke...

Oh my goodness everyone! My Gastric Sleeve Surgery is TOMORROW, September 14 at 12:30pm! I am super nervous as there are some unknowns as to how I am going to feel and how recovery will be. But I am also super excited for the journey ahead and to live a healthier, happier, and better life. I know it won't be easy and it will be a lot of hard work, but I am ready for the lifestyle change and am determined to succeed! I serve a big God and I know he will guiding the surgeons hands and laying his healing hands on me as the all mighty healer! He will also be guiding me and holding me through this entire journey. Its crazy to think that I began this crazy journey back in May and now the day is already here! Let me tell you what has all happened in this journey. My very first appointment was a seminar. At this seminar, my surgeon, Dr. Schram, talked about the 3 different options for weight loss surgery and all the benefits, risks, and what they all entail. Then after the seminar was ov...

Remember when I said I was feeling hopeful in my last blog post? Well...lets just say those hopes have turned into some HUGE Praise God's!! First off, the really great big praise God thing is about my Mom, and she is officially in REMISSION! Yes, that means she is now CANCER FREE! So, at this point she will be going into the doctor every 3 months just to have her blood work and make sure everything is still going good. The reality is that there is a 60% chance of the cancer returning. But, as for now, she is cancer free and that is all we care about. And if it comes back, we will worry about it then and not worry about it now. And, obviously, we serve a really big God that she is already in remission before we even hit the one year mark, so I believe that God can also keep her in remission until she hits the 10 year mark and is considered a cure! So, basically, that is the big prayer is that the cancer never returns! Second, I GOT A JOB! Yes, that's right, I finally have go...