I Hate Mothers Day...

It is official. I never thought I would ever say this in my life, but I HATE Mothers Day! Don't get me wrong, I think it is wonderful to acknowledge all that Mother's do for their children and to show them a little extra love on a special day to say thank-you. But, it is a day that really sucks for anyone who does not have a Mother to celebrate with.

For me, Mother's Day was awful and painful this year. It hurt so much seeing everyone show their Mom's love and say things like "I love her so much. She's my best friend. So thankful for her". I hurt seeing people take pictures with their Mom's on facebook and brag how great their Mom is. It hurt, because those are all things I wanted to do with my Mom so badly. I wanted to wake up and make my Mom breakfast and bring it to her bed, I wanted to bring her a bouquet of flowers, I wanted to give her a special gift with the perfect card. I wanted to give my mom a huge hug and tell her how much I love her. I wanted to hear her tell me she love's me right back and see her glowing smile. But I did not get any of that this year. What did I get to do on Mother's Day? I got to bring flowers to my Mom's grave site and place them by her tomb stone. I cried over her and told her I loved her and missed her so much. I told her how much I wish I could have her back. I walked home that night, crying the whole walk back, just wanting my Mom so bad.

Yesterday was one of the most, difficult, painful days I have had, yet, since my Mom's funeral. The pain is a pain that I could not even get close to describing accurately. It is a pain you can only fully know and understand when you go through it. I spent most of my day crying.

So lesson here? Be considerate on Mother's Day and other day's like it for all those that may have lost their Mother or for what ever reason just don't have a Mother. Because it is a day that is so unbelievably painful to get through. And every little reminder feels like a knife wound to the heart. Don't rub it in, don't over do it. Think about those that are struggling. Love your Mother, but also pray for those who don't have a Mother to celebrate with. Ask God to wrap his loving arms around them. I prayed a lot yesterday for God to do that for me and my family. It may have been a long, hard day, but we go through it. And I do believe God was the one who got us through it! It was because of his love and strength that we were able to get through it.

Thanks for listening. Hope I did not offend anyone. God Bless!

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