March MADNESS!!
Ok, I am sure you are all taking one look at the title of this post and thinking to yourselves, "since when is Tori in to basketball?" or "what is this even about?". I promise I am not trying to click bait you, and I also am definitely not in to basketball. But really, I could come up with no better title for this post than that. Because the month of March, for me, has simply been madness. And it has gone by so fast and I am just like, where the heck did this last month even go? Let me get into explaining.
I came back from Costa Rica, and March started right away, and I hit the ground running with getting myself back on track and back into routine, and also with more wedding stuff. My fiance and I made our wedding registries and we even went and got things figured out for our wedding bands. I also was able to go and pick up my wedding dress from the store, and I have purchased all of my accessories, such as a headband I am going to wear, my shoes, and a bra. And we even went and got the material for my Aunt to make the bridesmaids dresses. As far as getting back into routine, I started planning out meals again, going back to work, and getting back into my workout routine. I was getting body back on its normal rhythm. And then, BAM! Things came to a bit of slowdown and a halt.
On Thursday, March 14th, I switched shifts with my lead teacher, and worked the morning shift and worked from 6am to 12pm. Right after I got out of work, I went to the gym and did a workout, and then went home and had a little lunch. After I ate, I went started doing some cleaning in the kitchen. While I was cleaning, I started getting horrible abdominal pain, like right smack dab in the middle of abdomen. I was thinking that maybe I ate too fast, so I finished cleaning, and then went and laid down in my bed for awhile. After awhile it subsided and I started to feel a little bit better. I went upstairs and started to do a few things. And then, the pain started to come back, and it was really bad and I couldn't get it to go away. I felt like I was being stabbed in the stomach. I called my Aunt Sallie and asked her what she thought it was. She asked if I was able to drive and if I could go over to her house so she could assess a little better. So, that is what I did. Once at my Aunt Sallie's, both her and my sister, looked me over, since they are both nurses. And while there, the pain went away and I started to feel a little better. Aunt Sallie just told me if the pain came back, then I should probably get it looked at. I had a consistory meeting to go to at church, so I left to go to my meeting. I grabbed a quick bite to eat, and then went to my meeting. I ate just a little bit of my food, as I really didn't have much an appetite and the meeting started. About halfway through the meeting, the pain came back, and it was horrible. I kept shifting in my seat to try and get myself comfortable, but I couldn't. It was unbearable, and I finally just got up and walked out of the room. I used the bathroom and then sat on the floor and curled up in a ball to try and ease the pain, nothing was helping. I texted my Aunt Sallie and she said I should probably go in and get it looked at. I got up, and the meeting had ended, and went down to go grab my things. Those that were still there asked if I was ok, I told them what was going on, and my Pastor, Amy, offered to drive me to the ER. So that is where I went. Amy drove me, and Aunt Sallie met me there. Once I was there, they examined me, hooked me to an IV, and then ordered some tests. They did blood work, and also brought me to get a CAT scan and also and Ultra Sound. After all those tests came back, it was found that my gallbladder was full of gallstones. So I was admitted to the hospital, and was scheduled to have surgery the next day. And on Friday, March 15th, at 7:00pm, I had surgery to remove my gallbladder.
Having this surgery, brought back some scary flashbacks. When my Mom got diagnosed with cancer, it was when she had surgery to have her gallbladder out. So it brought me back to that day, and it definitely did scare me. Even though I knew I was already scanned, and nothing else was seen, it still made me a little afraid. I was holding it in a lot, and just before I was put to sleep for the surgery, I almost lost it and I even asked the doctor to promise me he would only take out my gallbladder and find nothing else. And then I was put to sleep. I woke up and everything had gone fine and I was brought back up to my room. I stayed overnight since it was so late at night and I was so tired and out of it. And then came the worst part of any surgery, the recovery process. I went home and was sore and couldn't do a whole lot. And I also got super swollen for a couple of days, which made me feel fat, which was definitely getting to my head. And with not being able to do a whole lot, I was afraid I had just gained like 5 pounds over the course of the whole ordeal. I was struggling. I will admit it. But, I did a lot of going to God and my Bible and praying. And it helped.
Also, during this time, on March 20th, my fiance and I closed on our house and, officially, became homeowners. And He got all moved into the house and we started on looking into things for doing some painting and fixing on the house. It was a lot and was overwhelming me. I had to take a step back, breathe, go to God, and remind myself it will all get done in time, and I need to just take things one moment and one step at a time.
Now, in this last week, I have gone back to work, we have selected paint colors for a house, and now I can start really getting back into routine again and getting work done with our house and the wedding again.
And with all of that, March is almost over. Also, the month of March also marks the anniversary of my Mom's passing. On March 10 was 3 years since my Mom passed away. And there is always some tough emotions with that day. But I do have to say, this year felt very different than the previous couple of years. Yes, it was still a little hard and I gave myself some time to honor and remember my Mom and mourn her a little bit, but then, I was able to just continue right back on with life and in the moment with my other loved ones. I was able to handle it and move on way better than ever before. And I definitely think my counseling has helped me a lot with being able to do that.
To end, yes, this Month was was madness. But, I am able to count my blessings. I am so grateful that my pain was just my gallbladder and nothing else and it was just a simple and easy fix. I am grateful that this happened after my Costa Rica trip and long before my wedding. I am grateful that I had worked the morning shift that day, so then this pain did not hit me while I was at work in front of the kids. I am thankful to have amazing people at my Church who prayed over me just before I went to the ER, and to have such a wonderful Pastor who was willing to take me to the ER, even though it was going on 10:30 at night. I am thankful for my Aunt Sallie who met me at the ER and pulled and all nighter with me. I am thankful for my amazing fiance who came running to my side early in the morning to love me and support me and sit beside me and even came back to the hospital after he got out of work in the afternoon and did not leave until after I was back from my surgery. I am thankful to be working for a place that was so kind to me over the whole situation and worked with me regarding my needing time off so generously and showed me they really cared about me! I am grateful for so many wonderful people around me who showed me so much love and support and prayed for me. I am so grateful, all around. God is so good, and he continues to be good. I am still living each moment, one moment at a time, and going through it as positive as I can, and working through my tough moments as they come up. I am doing my best to continue to be the best me I can through it all! I just let God be my guide and I trust Him with everything! This month was was madness, but yet it was still good, and I am ready to continue on with this wild ride of a year to see what else God has in store! Go God, and continue to amaze me!
I came back from Costa Rica, and March started right away, and I hit the ground running with getting myself back on track and back into routine, and also with more wedding stuff. My fiance and I made our wedding registries and we even went and got things figured out for our wedding bands. I also was able to go and pick up my wedding dress from the store, and I have purchased all of my accessories, such as a headband I am going to wear, my shoes, and a bra. And we even went and got the material for my Aunt to make the bridesmaids dresses. As far as getting back into routine, I started planning out meals again, going back to work, and getting back into my workout routine. I was getting body back on its normal rhythm. And then, BAM! Things came to a bit of slowdown and a halt.
On Thursday, March 14th, I switched shifts with my lead teacher, and worked the morning shift and worked from 6am to 12pm. Right after I got out of work, I went to the gym and did a workout, and then went home and had a little lunch. After I ate, I went started doing some cleaning in the kitchen. While I was cleaning, I started getting horrible abdominal pain, like right smack dab in the middle of abdomen. I was thinking that maybe I ate too fast, so I finished cleaning, and then went and laid down in my bed for awhile. After awhile it subsided and I started to feel a little bit better. I went upstairs and started to do a few things. And then, the pain started to come back, and it was really bad and I couldn't get it to go away. I felt like I was being stabbed in the stomach. I called my Aunt Sallie and asked her what she thought it was. She asked if I was able to drive and if I could go over to her house so she could assess a little better. So, that is what I did. Once at my Aunt Sallie's, both her and my sister, looked me over, since they are both nurses. And while there, the pain went away and I started to feel a little better. Aunt Sallie just told me if the pain came back, then I should probably get it looked at. I had a consistory meeting to go to at church, so I left to go to my meeting. I grabbed a quick bite to eat, and then went to my meeting. I ate just a little bit of my food, as I really didn't have much an appetite and the meeting started. About halfway through the meeting, the pain came back, and it was horrible. I kept shifting in my seat to try and get myself comfortable, but I couldn't. It was unbearable, and I finally just got up and walked out of the room. I used the bathroom and then sat on the floor and curled up in a ball to try and ease the pain, nothing was helping. I texted my Aunt Sallie and she said I should probably go in and get it looked at. I got up, and the meeting had ended, and went down to go grab my things. Those that were still there asked if I was ok, I told them what was going on, and my Pastor, Amy, offered to drive me to the ER. So that is where I went. Amy drove me, and Aunt Sallie met me there. Once I was there, they examined me, hooked me to an IV, and then ordered some tests. They did blood work, and also brought me to get a CAT scan and also and Ultra Sound. After all those tests came back, it was found that my gallbladder was full of gallstones. So I was admitted to the hospital, and was scheduled to have surgery the next day. And on Friday, March 15th, at 7:00pm, I had surgery to remove my gallbladder.
Having this surgery, brought back some scary flashbacks. When my Mom got diagnosed with cancer, it was when she had surgery to have her gallbladder out. So it brought me back to that day, and it definitely did scare me. Even though I knew I was already scanned, and nothing else was seen, it still made me a little afraid. I was holding it in a lot, and just before I was put to sleep for the surgery, I almost lost it and I even asked the doctor to promise me he would only take out my gallbladder and find nothing else. And then I was put to sleep. I woke up and everything had gone fine and I was brought back up to my room. I stayed overnight since it was so late at night and I was so tired and out of it. And then came the worst part of any surgery, the recovery process. I went home and was sore and couldn't do a whole lot. And I also got super swollen for a couple of days, which made me feel fat, which was definitely getting to my head. And with not being able to do a whole lot, I was afraid I had just gained like 5 pounds over the course of the whole ordeal. I was struggling. I will admit it. But, I did a lot of going to God and my Bible and praying. And it helped.
Also, during this time, on March 20th, my fiance and I closed on our house and, officially, became homeowners. And He got all moved into the house and we started on looking into things for doing some painting and fixing on the house. It was a lot and was overwhelming me. I had to take a step back, breathe, go to God, and remind myself it will all get done in time, and I need to just take things one moment and one step at a time.
Now, in this last week, I have gone back to work, we have selected paint colors for a house, and now I can start really getting back into routine again and getting work done with our house and the wedding again.
And with all of that, March is almost over. Also, the month of March also marks the anniversary of my Mom's passing. On March 10 was 3 years since my Mom passed away. And there is always some tough emotions with that day. But I do have to say, this year felt very different than the previous couple of years. Yes, it was still a little hard and I gave myself some time to honor and remember my Mom and mourn her a little bit, but then, I was able to just continue right back on with life and in the moment with my other loved ones. I was able to handle it and move on way better than ever before. And I definitely think my counseling has helped me a lot with being able to do that.
To end, yes, this Month was was madness. But, I am able to count my blessings. I am so grateful that my pain was just my gallbladder and nothing else and it was just a simple and easy fix. I am grateful that this happened after my Costa Rica trip and long before my wedding. I am grateful that I had worked the morning shift that day, so then this pain did not hit me while I was at work in front of the kids. I am thankful to have amazing people at my Church who prayed over me just before I went to the ER, and to have such a wonderful Pastor who was willing to take me to the ER, even though it was going on 10:30 at night. I am thankful for my Aunt Sallie who met me at the ER and pulled and all nighter with me. I am thankful for my amazing fiance who came running to my side early in the morning to love me and support me and sit beside me and even came back to the hospital after he got out of work in the afternoon and did not leave until after I was back from my surgery. I am thankful to be working for a place that was so kind to me over the whole situation and worked with me regarding my needing time off so generously and showed me they really cared about me! I am grateful for so many wonderful people around me who showed me so much love and support and prayed for me. I am so grateful, all around. God is so good, and he continues to be good. I am still living each moment, one moment at a time, and going through it as positive as I can, and working through my tough moments as they come up. I am doing my best to continue to be the best me I can through it all! I just let God be my guide and I trust Him with everything! This month was was madness, but yet it was still good, and I am ready to continue on with this wild ride of a year to see what else God has in store! Go God, and continue to amaze me!
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