Having a Panniculectomy!

I am so beyond excited! In just 3 weeks, 3 weeks from today, I will be having a Panniculectomy! What now? A panniculectomy is a surgery that removes the excess skin hanging from your abdomen. That skin, that some people refer to as the "belly apron" is called the pannis. So basically, I am going to be having that extra skin removed and then everything will be pulled together nice and tight and closed up.

This is the plastic surgery I have been spending the last 9 months trying to get approved for by my insurance company. And after doing a 6 month waiting period, and collecting all kinds of proof for them that the skin causes me issues, I have finally been approved and am getting it done! I am scheduled for my surgery on March 19th! And I am super excited.

Now, everyone keeps asking me if I am nervous or scared. And the answer is, no, I am just flat out excited. I mean, yeah, I know it is a major surgery and there will be some pain and discomfort and things like that for awhile, I am sure. But if it goes anything like my arm surgery did, which was extremely smooth, I am not concerned. Also, the thing people don't understand, is just how sick and tired I am of all this skin on my stomach. There has to be somewhere between 5 and 10 pounds of skin hanging on my stomach, I feel like. Because it is so uncomfortable all the time. I have constant back pain, I deal with rashes underneath the skin, and I have to wear a belly band just to hold it all in and feel at least some comfort. The skin just feels so heavy and gets in the way and even makes certain tasks more uncomfortable or even sometimes a little difficult. Not to mention, it keeps me from actually seeing myself as skinny. Because I see that skin hanging on me, it makes me still feel fat, it makes me still see that obese and unhappy person I once was. I feel like getting rid of the extra skin will just, once and for all, help me to feel the way I truly want to feel and finally see myself as the person I know I have become.

I cannot wait for March 19 to get here and I am counting down the days! And, once again, I will be staying with my Aunt Sallie for awhile after the surgery because I am going to need help bathing, since I will have to sponge bathe for awhile again. And also, I will have drains put in draining off any fluid that builds up. Which, my Aunt being a nurse, she will be great with helping me with that. I will also be off of work for a couple of weeks, but everything is all good with that already. I am just so ready and so excited.

And once I am all healed up from surgery, I have some serious plans. I plan to have a nice makeover done on myself. As in actually have my hair done all nice and pretty, and even wear some makeup and just make myself look really nice. I also plan to get myself a nice dress that will really show off my new body really nicely. Just really go all out and make myself look the way I have only ever dreamed of looking. And then I will take some nice pictures to document it all! Which again, I am super excited for, and have already been day dreaming and looking at what I kind of want to look like! I tell ya, this is going to be a dream come true for me, and I feel there may even end up being tears involved. Especially, since I know my Mom would be so proud and I only wish she would be able to see me! It is going to be so great, but yet so emotional!

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