Birthday Blues Turned to Birthday Fun!

So, I just turned 23 on February 6. Initially, I was trying desperately to avoid my Birthday and to just skip right over it. Mostly because I was having a lot of anxiety over my Birthday and there were a lot of painful memories from last year that kept resurfacing and haunting me. To the extent where I was having nightmares that were keeping me from sleeping good at night. Also, I probably was a little bitter over the fact that I never got to celebrate my Birthday one last time with my mom, because she was in the hospital last year on my Birthday and we never got to celebrate together before she got super sick and ended up passing away. So, I just did not want to celebrate my Birthday. To top it off, the Saturday before my Birthday, I was having car trouble and was just over all frustrated and sick of being an adult. I just was not having it and did not want to celebrate at all. But, those who love me wouldn't let me skip it.

First off, my wonderful family made me feel very loved. They forced me to select a Birthday dinner and a dessert to have with it. They also all sang to me and just in genera loved on me. And on the day of my Birthday, I had to work a 10 hour day at work. At first I was trying to pretend like it wasn't my Birthday, not mentioning anything to anyone and acting like it was a normal day. But everyone already knew because my boss had a sign in the office saying "Happy Birthday Tori". Everyone said "Happy Birthday" to me and made me feel very loved. My kiddos at work even sang to me and gave me lots of love, and even were really good and well-behaved. And when my work friends asked me if I was going to be doing anything special, I just told them "no". Well, they didn't want to hear that, so they all decided to take me out to dinner for my Birthday. So after work that night, we all went out to Red Robin. It was so much fun and so relaxing, and they even convinced me to try a few sips of alcohol. I wasn't entirely impressed, but hey I tried it anyway. They all made me feel so loved and special and they all kept telling me I deserved it. By the end of the night, they had me tearing up they made me feel just that loved. And on top of that, I had well over 50 Birthday messages on facebook. It was such a good day.

Overall, I am so glad about how the day went. What I thought was just going to be a long and difficult day, ended up being an absolutely amazing and wonderful day. I realized that I am so blessed far beyond what I deserve. I have the most amazing coworkers, that I am also able to call my friends. Which is such a blessing, I feel very, very blessed to work with such an amazing group of wonderful people who love me so much. Also, in general, I have a lot of amazing people in my life who love me so much. So many amazing friends and family, and again, I am blessed beyond what I even deserve. And I think I definitely made my Mom happy, because I still enjoyed my special day and had fun, even without her here, and I am sure that is what she would have wanted for me to do. Oh, and I also gave myself a pretty awesome Birthday gift, I am now in "ONEDERLAND" meaning my weight is now in the 100s!! The day before my Birthday, I stood on the scale and weighed 196! WOOHOO! Talk about feeling good about myself.

So in general, this Birthday was pretty amazing and I was made to feel pretty loved and special. Which is way more than I could ever ask for. Better than any other gift I have ever gotten. This past Birthday was definitely one of the best Birthdays I have had and will forever be in my memory as an amazing one. And I thank all my wonderful friends and family for making sure I still enjoyed my day, despite how I was initially feeling over it. Thank-you to all, you are all so wonderful!

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