New Home!...Adjusting...

Well, we are completely settled into our new condo! We got moved in on January 2, so we have now been living here for close to 3 weeks. I was so excited for this new fresh start, but I didn't fully realize how tough this would be, either.

Let me first start off by saying that I do LOVE our new place! It is really nice, really close to a lot of stuff, and is so much easier to take care of and maintain. I am loving it. But at first it took some adjusting.

When we first got moved in and I said good-bye to our house, I was very emotional over it. It had really hit hard that I was going to be leaving the place that I grew up in and lived in my entire life, and that I was going to be leaving the place that will always be "My Mom's House". I had a brief meltdown and I cried, I almost felt like I was leaving my Mom behind and part of me behind. And when I got back to the condo, I had a hard time calling it my "home".

It did not feel like home at first. It felt like a place I was just staying at temporarily, like a hotel or something. It felt so weird. I was feeling mixed emotions over being in our new place. On one hand, I really loved it and it felt good to start fresh, but on the other hand it just wasn't my home and was not my Mom's. And when people asked me "how the new place was" or "if I liked it" or "are you adjusting ok", I always just responded telling them, "It's nice", "It's and adjustment", or "yeah its ok". Mainly because I was still adjusting and still getting use to it.

But, now that it has been a couple of weeks, I am finally settling down and really loving our new place. I love the new appliances in the condo, I love that its easier to clean, I love that I am so much closer to so many things so I don't have to drive so far, and the list just goes on. I have really settled into the place and am feeling comfortable. And, too, my emotions have settled down and I have come to realize, that it is ok to be a little sad over the other place, because it was a huge adjustment. And also, my Mom I am sure is so happy for us that we were able to let go and move on and start fresh. Because I know that is what she would want of us. She would want us to keep living our lives and not dwelling on her all the time. She was like that even when she was alive and was sick. She did not want us all dwelling on her all the time, she still wanted us to live our lives. And now, I am truly feeling that fresh start feeling I was looking forward too. It is a new year and we are in a new place. It feels good start over and have started this year on a positive note.

It took a lot of adjusting, and going through the motions, but that is ok. Because now we are totally settled into our home, and we are happy. And I am happy to say that this is our home, and even though it isn't my Mom's, she is still with us, watching over us, and is very happy for us. So, here is to our new home and fresh start!

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