We Make Plans, God Laughs!

We make plans and God laughs. That is what my Mom used to tell me all of the time. And it really has hit me how true that is, just by looking at my own life. 

Ever since I was little, I have always wanted to be a writer. I remember writing all kinds of little stories and stapling them together. My Mom saved them an always joked with me that she was going to sell them one day when I became a famous writer. As I got older I got more into writing stories in my notebooks. It was my favorite past time. And all through High School, I told everyone I wanted to go to school for Creative Writing. When I looked into college, that is the major I was aiming for. My whole plan for my future, was to become a writer. Well, lets just say God must have really been laughing hard every single time I told someone what I thought I was going to be doing for the rest of my life. Because, things definitely did not work out that way.

I started college, planning on that creative writing major. I only went to a couple of days of classes, and things ended up not working out for me. I ran into some financial issues with the college I was going to go to and ended up dropping all of my classes and decided college was just not meant for me at that time. And I felt really lost. I was not sure what God had in store for me, and was not sure what to do next.

My family was really hard on me. Honestly, a lot of the time I felt like they were being too hard on me. I felt like I just couldn't get them to understand. I felt like I was just a huge disappointment to them and like I was just a failure at life. I felt so lost. I kept looking for a job, but was having a hard time finding one. I became very depressed over the whole situation. And still, was very confused as to what it was I was supposed to do. I still even tried to pursue my writing in other ways. I tried to workout doing some independent studies with an old High School teacher that never happened. I tried working something out with a lady my church, that never happened, either. I even thought I could do some "self education" with writing using some books I had gotten from my college and some online things I had found. Yeah, I found myself not really able to pursue that, either.

I honestly felt so lost and confused. I thought I wanted to be a writing and was meant to be a writer, but yet God just did not seem to be opening those doors for me. Then, I started to really move down the path, I know now, is the one I was meant to be on in the first place.

I did a lot of babysitting for my cousins and for some people from church. I also always loved volunteering in church Sunday School and doing Kids Hope. I always enjoyed working with kids. So one of my cousins recommending being a Nanny to me. And that is when I began looking for a Nanny job, and managed to get one. It ended up being really short lived, but then a good friend of mine who used to go to church with me asked me to Nanny her kids for her. I accepted and loved every moment of it. I started to realize how much I loved kids, so I began looking into other jobs that involved kids.

It still was not easy. My family insisted I needed a job in some factory or store that paid more and that I would work lots of hours. I looked at those jobs, got some interviews, but the interviews never really went any further than interviews. Then, I got a call to interview at a Public School for their before and after school day care program. Though it would only be part time, it still sounded like a perfect job for me. And this time, I was actually offered the job, and I accepted it.

And in my one year time of working this job, I have loved every second of it and have felt right at home and right where I am supposed to be. So much so, that I have decided to pursue it even more. Now, I am working on my CDA(Child Development Associates), so I will be able to do even more in working with kids and get paid a little more. Also, I have just accepted a full time job at a local daycare and I am really excited. I will be working full time doing something I love, which is working with kids. And now, I finally feel like I am getting somewhere in life and am succeeding and making my family proud, and making myself proud.

And now that I look back at everything, I am glad I decided not to continue at college. Because if I had been more stubborn and tried to push past the financial issues and continue on, I would probably be working some dumb writing job that I would not even fully enjoy. I would be doing something that God never had intended for me.

I know now, God had a plan for me the whole time. He laughed so hard at me when I said I was going to be a writer and pursue writing. God knew where I was meant to be, he knew I was meant to work with kids. He knew I had a love and passion for kids, and that I needed to be working with kids and making an impact on kids' lives. Heck, before, I didn't even really fully realize how much I actually really loved kids. Now, I know I have a true passion for kids and for helping them grow and learn and become the people God has created them to be. God put road blocks in front of me every time I tried to continue to pursue writing for a career, because he wanted me to turn around and get back on the correct road for my life. I was going down the wrong road and I didn't know it, but God did, and he guided me back on the right path.

Not to say I don't like to write, because, clearly, I do. I mean, I write this blog don't I? But, I love it more as a hobby, as something I do for fun to help me wind down and relax and get my thoughts out of my head and onto paper, or a computer. It is not something I want to do for a career. I have found where I belong, and I am so happy with it. Though, people may still say I was stupid not to go to college and what not, I believe this is what was meant to be. I mean, I am taking CDA classes now and going to be working full time doing what I love. I think I am doing ok. I feel I am where God wants me to be. I am so happy with myself right now, and to me that is what is important. I have discovered myself and where I belong.

So, just remember, what your plans are, may not be God's plans for you. He may have a whole different plan for you. But he works in mysterious ways and will get you down that right path all in His good and perfect timing. Right now, he is just laughing at your plans as he is already working on unfolding His plans. So, if you feel lost, just turn to God and trust Him, he will make your path strait, and soon your plans, will be His plans for you. Thanks for reading!