Growing in God

In these last 2 months, there has been so many changes in my life. And I have had so many ups and downs. Life has been a roller coaster. There has been so many adjustments and I swear I have been twice as busy as I was before. Learning to do life without my Mom, has been very difficult and there has been good days and bad days. First off, I have kind of taken over a lot of my Mom's roles in the house. I do all the cleaning and the laundry, I do all the grocery shopping and plan all of our meals. I prepare most of our meals, or at least have them ready to go so all my Dad has to do it heat them up. I also have been doing a lot to help my brother out and make sure he gets through this last little bit of his senior year of High School. Not to mention, I am kind of the one throwing his Open House, but at least my family is being awesome and doing a ton to help me out with it. The next big thing, has been dealing with my Dad. Now, I am not going to go into deep detail on everything ...

It is official. I never thought I would ever say this in my life, but I HATE Mothers Day! Don't get me wrong, I think it is wonderful to acknowledge all that Mother's do for their children and to show them a little extra love on a special day to say thank-you. But, it is a day that really sucks for anyone who does not have a Mother to celebrate with. For me, Mother's Day was awful and painful this year. It hurt so much seeing everyone show their Mom's love and say things like "I love her so much. She's my best friend. So thankful for her". I hurt seeing people take pictures with their Mom's on facebook and brag how great their Mom is. It hurt, because those are all things I wanted to do with my Mom so badly. I wanted to wake up and make my Mom breakfast and bring it to her bed, I wanted to bring her a bouquet of flowers, I wanted to give her a special gift with the perfect card. I wanted to give my mom a huge hug and tell her how much I love her. I w...